I don't know

If I'm being honest. I don't know what I'm doing. I always push myself so hard that I burn out way too fast. It's like a never-ending path. It's either I have the motivation but not the energy or I have the energy but no motivation... I want to do so much but my mind won't let

me. I can't win! But then sometimes I'm fully motivated and have the energy. Then I get so much done but then it comes crashing down and makes a complete stop. I think between the no sleep so I'm tired all the time to so mentally exhausted that I find it hard to want to do anything. But eventually I'll figure it out. Then there are the days when I can't stop doing things so I can't relax or sleep or breathe.